Just middle of the night

Well I've been actually passing out the last two nights on the couch... Hard to believe that I went to sleep on a Friday night @ 10:40 ish.... Starting my wonderful spent day with my girls on Saturday only to go to sleep before 9pm.... Woke up little after 12:30 am & I'm not feeling good but caught up on my journal entry & just relaxing. Oh I did receive some Ferber daisies day after our horrible anniversary & it made things perfect~ I think my problem is when it's a holiday or one of our significant days I just expect too much that will result in failure~ so valentines day~ tattoo & a flower  = perfection~*